So memes mean a lot to me. And I generally get my life advice from them, take them more seriously than my therapist, and pay particular attention to the order, emotion and category within which I receive them. One place where you can collect such life changing memes is on Pinterest. Or so I thought. You see, I learnt the hard way (listen I live in Africa, Pinterest is freaking NEW) that Pinterest like selects stuff for you to look at based on previous views etc. Now this MUST be flawed, because well I don’t know how it works properly, so I’ve clicked on things that I DO NOT like and wanted to get rid of. Because of this particular habit I am now following a number of people I don’t like, have no similarity to, and find largely annoying. I also have mis-spelt Boards with random categories I wouldn’t use. I clicked the like button many a time, instead of the please don’t show me this again. And accordingly, I see and digest things as if from a fortune teller in moment by moment meme order on Pinterest UNKNOWINGLY.
And there were a few things that happened, with the emotional waves of memes that flooded my surf through Pinterest. The first said that: “Oh I’m sorry, that filter between my brain and mouth is broken” (could totally relate), the second: “Is it rude to throw a Xanax in someone else’s mouth while they talking?” (laughed uproariously for way too long), and then I saw the Bipolar ones. “What people with Bipolar wish you knew”, “Tips for living with Bipolar”, and there weren’t any with good news. Good enough news. In summary for me, the message was how to live with your broken brain (one picture even showed a paper person with Bipolar on fire), and I thought holy sh*t – the outlook for me, and anybody with mental illness is bleak.
I am positive that there are other kinds of news. Other kinds of pictures. Other memes. But I would say that the negative outweighs the good. And there is room for so, so, so much more than what I can’t do. Or how my brain is red where other people’s is blue. I do not need anyone else pointing out how hard mental illness. Thanks. I get a “good” daily dose. To those who are writing, painting and drawing a positive and bright future for people with mental illness, please do more, go further, and talk louder. Because the most dangerous thing about the current kind of memes and news, is that people with mental illness will see it. Will believe it. There’s an awful lot of it so why wouldn’t I / we? And if you’re anything like me, you don’t need help believing that so unnecessary self roasting stuff.ONE LITTLE BIT. As for me – I’m avoiding memes for the weekend – and secretly asking one of my chickens to reprogram my interests. Lest another meme mock me. Happy weekend. Be part of those who support us as opposed to those who don’t. I am 4 M’s Bipolar Mom.